Thursday, January 12, 2006

Voyeurism - Or Curiousity?

Voyeurism - or Curiosity?

Voyeur: French, literally, one who sees.

1 : one obtaining sexual gratification from seeing sex organs and sexual acts; broadly : one who habitually seeks sexual stimulation by visual means

2 : a prying observer who is usually seeking the sordid or the scandalous

Have you ever watched, or knew you were being watched? I'm not saying that I am a voyeur, I'm saying that things keep happening to me, from childhood up through adulthood.

The first time it happened I was about seven years old. My brother Dennis, who shared a room with my other brother, was in my oldest sister's room with his company. My sister and I (we are a family of five) shared a room adjoining my oldest sister's room. I had the wall closest to my sister's room. I can't 'splain the wall, but I could see through it. My sister's side appeared as all wall, but my side was mesh, I don't want to confuse you I'm trying to advance the story, so I will end it at that; tinny-way:

I was playing with my play-dough, and was about to put it back on the shelf. I accidentally on purpose looked through the mesh, and Lillian (my brother's girlfriend) was on top of my brother with her pants down (down, not off), grinding my brother. He had his hands on her behind and they were moving. I was trying not to look, but I couldn't stop staring. They were kissing, too. So I just kept looking. I don't remember how and why I stop, prolly got scared someone was going to come out peekin. It was the first time I had saw anyone in the nude. For that particular feeling, I wouldn't classify myself as feeling sexual, but I knew it was something different to what I was looking at, because I kept turning around towards my door to see if my momma or daddy was coming.

Second time around, I was about ten. My friend who lived down the street, she was what we called at that time, a latch-key kid. For those of you born after 1980, a latch key kid is a young child who comes home with their own house key, and are generally home alone for a short period while their parents were working. So, she was home by herself, and I came over to play with her Barbie Townhouse. Her brother came home with his girlfriend and went straight to the den. We knew what was up. So we waited awhile and crawled into her step down den, at least near it, to see if we could see something. And we did. They were going up, down, up, down. But they were under the covers. But then they started getting crazy and the covers came off. Both of them started yelling really loud and we got scared and crawled back in the room because we thought they were upset that they were caught. Needless to say, I now know what they were dewin.

Third time around (this is the only ones y'all need to know about), I took my friend Melanie over her boyfriend's house. His parents were on vacation. He had a little sister but she went with them. He stayed behind to work and go to school. We were all hanging out for awhile, and then I went in his sisters room to mess around with her flute (I played one for seven years), and eventually went to sleep. When I woke up I went into his kitchen to use the phone (this was pre-cell phone era), and I was talking, and I happened to lean forward. I got a bird's eye view of the action.

At first I was shocked; it was almost surreal. They couldn't see me because the way the bed was positioned, their heads were behind the door. So I could see from the neck down. I started whispering all on the phone, like the girl on the phone knew I was looking or something. Hell, I told her I had to call her back, because at that point I wasn't paying attention to the phone conversation anyway.

I really did try not to look. But they were getting down. Right before they got done (or at least what my inexperienced self thought), I went back in his sister's room and laid down. I heard them when they finished. About 20 minutes later, she came in there (I don't know if she took a ho bath or what, but I didn't hear no water running), asking me what was up. I was like "Nothing, I just woke up". I must admit, I did keep watching, because I liked it. There, I said it.

Have you watched? Been watched? Did you like it - or not?

19 comments:

Lāā said...

My oldest two cousins are brothers and in the early '80's teenagers also. They used to bring their girlfriends over and grind with them. My cousin, their little sister, and I used to peek and watch them all the time. We never saw any flesh but they were doing some mad grinding. I remember describing it as she would move here and he would move there too like his body was glued onto hers.

But I remember when I had my first grind, the boy told me that his doctor (yes, he said his doctor) told him that he could almost die if he grinded too long without having sex. I believed him too, but I was always too scared to have sex. The way my mom thought was you could steal a car, skip school, but you better not come home pregnant!

Closet Owner said...

Nice recount.

I love to watch and I used to not be shy about being watched. But now I really think that I dont want to share my intimate moments with anyone other than my wife.

Gettin old I guess.

African girl, American world said...

LOL @ laalaa. That damn Doctor! Nuns told us lil 12 yr old catholic school girls that being in the pool in a bathing suit with boys could get us pregnant *have mercy*. We were scared for a LONG time.

Back to the subject matter. I think I would just like to stick to my flicks. I couldn't be watched - I would be too worried bout what was being seen to get into what I was doing and I wouldn't watch someone either.

P said...

laalaa: That sounds like what little boys in my neighborhood would call blueballs. And I believed them, too!

CO: Aww. Love'll do that to ya.

Mwabi: Would you watch if you knew someone didn't see you looking?

African girl, American world said...

probably not. I'm shy and would be too scared they'd see me somehow.

That Girl Tam said...

Hmm....I've never seen two people having sex...I mean other than watchin those movies my man gets from Come n' Go Market (hehehe - inside joke) around the corner! HAHAHAHAHA!

Remember when I was telling you about how liberal my family was? Seemed like my whole family was always naked...I've seen my parents AND my grandparents naked and it was never a big deal...but I ain't never been around someone having sex, nor have I been watched (unless you count Devon waking up in his crib and staring). Hehehe...

P said...

Tam:

Does Devon say anything, or does he just look.

African girl, American world said...

oh yeah...the kiddies sneaking a peek. hell I don't even like the dog to be in the room - I just got over that :)

That Girl Tam said...

Devon just looks...we even tried to put covers over the bars of his crib...but his nosey ass pulls them down...and his daddy be in the middle of some shit and don't wanna stop! HAHAHAHA

Dee said...

I like watching and being watched!!!!

I like to watch cause it turns me on........

I like to be watched cause welllll it turns me on and I turn into a porn star!!!!!

There I said it.what?????

Dee said...

Lemme clear this up..........

I don't like being watched by pets or kids!!!!!

That Girl Tam said...

LMAO @ Dee! You'z crazy chile! So I'm guessin if my pet hampster was watchin, we don't get to see the porn star in you come out??? AAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

African girl, American world said...

Damn Dee! You need your own post!

I can see it now...lemme show you all how the Dee Show is done :)

Jaimie said...

When I was in high school, my boyfriend's brother used to sneak and watch us. Damn pervert. He was young-so whatever.

I've never watched others. I was raised by a single mom, so for most of my life the bedroom was quiet. Finally, she got a man (and one that I couldn't stand) and I heard them knocking the bed around and I nearly threw up. Who wants to hear their mom having sex?

ddsprncs said...

Ok I hope I never run for political office...
cuz they will be able find a whole lot of dirt!
I can say no more. one day, I will write the book.

Serenity23 said...

I have been watched. And it made me perform even harder b/c I knew I was being watched. I guess we all have some voyeur in us, well those who watch porn. And I might add that I try to stay away from those images at this point, but yeah in the past watching porn turned me on.

YouToldHarpoTaBeatMe said...

I'm assuming that my husband's friend has seen my husband and me in action. For a short time, they were roommates in the barracks. They had just returned from being out field training. It was the first time I had seen in a month, so when he opened the door to his room, I just lunged for the man.

All that time that we were smashing each other, I finally noticed that bathroom door was cracked. The bathroom adjoined another barracks room.

The way his friend looks at me, I'm starting to realize the he was on the other side of the door.

Closet Owner said...

@all
yall some freaky.

"N" Search of Ecstasy said...

At first I was thinking, no...I've never watched. But then I recalled when I was probably in middle school, my older cousin (Mark) who was in high school came over to my grandmothers house. Grandma was not at home at the time.

Another one of my cousins (Tam) and I were sitting in the den when Mark came in wearing only a pair of shorts. Next, I over heard him asking another one of my much older cousins Tommy if he had a condom. My cousin Tam and I looked at each other and giggled.

After he got the condom and went into the bedroom. My cousin Tam and I got up and tried to peak through the key hold, LOL. It was too dark though and we could not see. Then we took our bad azzes outside and got a bucket, stood on it and tried to peek through the window.

I know crazy right? That’s really my only voyeuristic experience.